Author Archives: Unworthy of You

I found myself stalking your facebook account, reading all comments that could suffice my curiosity. I’m glad to know that you are happy. No— I am proud.

I didn’t expect that after what we had, after me breaking you apart, you would open your heart again and try to love for the second time. I can’t say this to your face, for I am so afraid to burst into tears. And I know that, that is your weakness. I know that even though I hurt you badly, you would never turn your back and let me bleed. I know you would wipe my tears away and help me heal.

You are not just the man I so much love, you are also my friend, you are my savior.

But let me save you this time.

— Jucel Faith

Those blissful times seemed so fast, but I know that remembering happy moments won’t change the fact that we’ve parted ways. I loved you, more than anything else, more than you and anyone would know. It was hard, but I’ll move on and survive, realizing that it was not really the end.

I opened my heart again, after some self-isolation periods. I loved again, I meet the love of my life, she is a wonderful woman, and I couldn’t ask for more. It was a blessing that she was given by the universe to me, even after our stars went to fade away.

For the very last time, I want to say sorry and, thank you. Sorry for not being good enough, and thank you for giving me an opportunity to recreate myself again. Don’t worry, you don’t need to save me, and I’d already forgiven you. I do wish you the best, and hope life treats you well. May you find your own happy place, because part of me will always love you.

— Blythe Naza

Isang umaga habang nag-aalmusal na walang nararamdamang kilig, naalala kong mahigit tatlong buwan ko na pa lang hindi hinihintay ang mga mensahe niya. Kung dati’y ulam ang ‘magandang umaga’ niya, noong umagang iyon, tila naging kape itong kailanma’y hindi ko inasahan. Hindi naman kasi ako umiinom ng kape sa umaga.

Nagulat din ako na hindi na siya ang laman ng lahat ng mga kwento ko. Kung paanong iniwan ng araw ang gabi, katulad niya sa akin. Kung paano nagagawa ng isang umiibig na pagmasdan ang kaniyang minamahal na sinusuyo ang kaniyang sinisinta; katulad ko sa inyo.

— Jucel Faith

Nangangatwiran ang damdamin, nagdadahilan na ‘di ko na dapat siya mahalin pabalik. Sumasang-ayon naman ang hangganan na ‘wag ko nang pagtuunan pa ng pansin. Nanlamig, ngunit nagugulumihanan. Ang isang munting pagdududa’y nauwi sa isang matibay na katibayan, na dapat kong suklian ang pinapakita niyang kabutihan.

Ipagpaumanhin niya sana kung naging matigas ako, kung paano ko binakuran at inilayo sa marami ang pagmamahal kung saan ako’y may malaking kahinaan, kung saan matagal kong isinara at sa muli ay aking pagbubuksan. Dahil sa kanya. Marahil ay magiging malapit na ang dating malayo.

— Blythe Naza