You are my beautiful trauma. The one I want and don’t want to live without. You brought both pain and love into my life and I don’t know if I can ever survive not having those. I cannot remember when the nightmares started but I am beyond happy when I get to tell those to my therapist; only having scarecrows and gunshots in my dreams means I can have my resting. I miss pajama parties. But I always wake up on the wrong side of the bed and eventually hate everyone I sleep with realizing it’s not your arms I was caged into. How crazy is it to feel safe and in great danger at the same time? I experienced heaven and hell when you loved me. Your doormat can testify how hesitant I was when I left you. Darling, what I did, it was all for the better. We aren’t in love. We’re just scared to be alone.
-Jucel Faith
Photo: Screenshot from the movie ‘YOU’
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